Help with ADHD..stuff?

Okay you guys. I'm 17. I'm in a lot of distress now and I can't seem to take it anymore. i feel like no one understands me. Why? You might ask. Here's why. For years, i have been suffering from the inability to consentrate. I really suppect i have ADHD...bad. My oldest brother has it. Every single guidance counselor i've had from Elementary-high school had expressed to my mom that i possibly have ADHD and should go get evaluated...even several teachers. but my mom won't do it, know why? My oldest brother (older by ten years) was evaluated when he was in middle school and received ritalin (back in the day when ritalin was all that exsisted.) he hated his meds and stayed on them for about two weeks. So now my mom won't go and get me evaluated for fear of the same thing occuring. i'm really struggling here. i've tried talking to my mom several times but she won't budge. my parents say it's in my head. They say i'im lazy and tell me that i can consentrate on things like tv, so why can't I do it in othe rareas of my life? They call me lazy a lot. It's a downer. It makes me feel like I'm not good enough. you know, a 17 year old girl is supposed to remember to turn the dish washer or dryer on. but I forget. There have been several instances when I got to high school (things went down hill from there) that i've been in trouble, have been to the principal's office and the guidance counselor has asked if i was on my meds. I then asked, "for what?" she then continued to explan that she thought I was ADHD and taking meds for it. i'm struggling now more than ever. i'm a pretty smart kid, until now I've gotten by with B's in school, you know, average. in 8th grade I started getting poorer grades as the work load increases and my time management skills and ability to pay attention decreased or stayed the same. I can't read a book, or the Bible for pete's sake. It's 12AM, i can't sleep. Here are some things that lead me to suspect i have adhd(not in order by the most troublesome): Trouble falling asleep, trouble waking up, can't finish homework, can't sit down long enough to do/start homework, i tend to say the first thing that comes to mind...often getting me into trouble, loosing things...a lot, I can't tell you the number of times I've lost my car keys, can't find my shoes in the morning, and so on, i forget what i'm saying like...mid sentence, get this: Caffiene like in coffee makes me SLEEPY...wtf?, I feel like I'm busy all day long but never get anythign accomplished, I've been written up at work before for forgetting to do things, I've been written up at school for interupting class, I often ask the teacher to stand up in the middle of class because i fall asleep a lot or have trouble paying attention, i struggle with things like this all day. it's getting hard. i'm taking college courses full-time now and i'm only a part-time high school student. Im a smart kid, i know I am, but I just feel like i'm better than this...i just hit a brick wall. Thoughts on if this is ADHD. What can i do in the mean time...before i turn 18 and can go to the doc myself? Any concerns and such? help!!!??!!

PS:Oh trust...it took at while. I kept having to edit the time and eventually settled on 12AM. Took me about an hour and a half and lots of spell check.

pss:I found today that there are 123 ceiling tiles in my new english class and 24 desks when I was supposed to be doing SAT vocab :).
psss: i WROTE THIS LAST NIGHT

Hey! I dont think you have ADHD but ADD .


are you hyper active? if you are then you have ADHD.
if not you have simply ADD

you should talkt to your docot about it they can diagnose you with it and perscribe medication to help you focus!!

such as concerta, adderal, ritalin!


But you most defientely have it theres nota doubt in my mind that you dont i also have add...


and i take concerta!

hope this helps i really do!!
xoxox
-Marissa

AD HD is not real! And don't tell me I don't know what I'm talking about. I was diagnosed with AD HD in kindergarten. It is not real. Why? Because I was hyper in kindergarten! Show me a kindergartner that isn't hyper! It's a fake disease that parents and schools made up to deal with rambunctious children.