What Is Wrong With Me? [Schizophrenia, Maybe?]?

Alright, I can't really come up with a specific point in my life when it began I just know it's been going on for a while now. I'll just list off whats going on-
--I feel like there's something, just beyond anything I can percieve, feel or see, that's watching me.
--I do NOT hear voices in my head telling me to harm other people, but I DO get thoughts I wish I didn't and can't get them to leave me be
--I feel emotionally blunted and things that make other people terribly sad have no effect on me at all
--I was bullied as a child, and I have yet to have a 'boyfriend' [I'm 15 by the way], so I see everyone around me and feel alone
--These "beings" I can't feel/see/hear are watching me constantly, even as I type this
--Even though they see everything I do, they still love me very much, and I feel llike if I could, I would love them back
--I have a memory like most people wouldn't believe, which I hear is common in schizophrenics


I am very aware that these feelings aren't "normal", what's your take on it?

1) You're 15, so you're still a child. Sorry, but it's true.
2) Lots of people haven't had a boyfriend by that time, stop worrying about it.
3) Your brain is going through a lot of chemical changes, and your thought process is likely to be a bit skewed for a while.
4) Intrusive, unwanted thoughts is commonly found in schizophrenia, but it's also commonly found in bi-polar disorder, depression, GAD, PTSD, phobias, etc. So it's not particularly indicative of anything. Also, see #3.

If you're really worried, you could go see a psychologist. But they really do love giving out diagnoses -- so they might peg you with something just to feel like they're being effective.

Otherwise, you could wait until you're out of you're at least out of high school to start worrying about it too much (provided that it's not greatly affecting your life).

It's also important to note that in most cases symptoms have to persist for at least 2 months before even a trained psychologist is likely to want to make a diagnosis. So it's important to consider how long this has been going on.

Im not a psychiatrist but I really doubt your schizophrenic. If you were genuinely psychotic it wouldnt occur to you that your feelings are abnormal. The short answer is, if you are worried about your state of mental health go and see a counsellor or have a chat with a GP. There are tons and tons of mental health disorders you could have (but probably dont) apart from the big ones like schizophrenia and bi-polar disorder. You could just be a bit depressed.

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